About

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Me in a detailed nutshell.

When it comes to quotes other than Bible for it me it will be majority of all the time be Shakespeare, I think he captured what everyone was thinking but put it in a poetic format that rang much deeper when you hear it or read it.

Favorite quotes by Him

1) “Men’s vows are woman’s traitors.”

2) “The course of true love never runs smooth”

3) “Let your actions match your words and let your words match your actions”

4) “our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt”

I am very spontaneous and I enjoy life within measure. I wish I didn’t but I think before I do or say anything. I am in love with love, romance, poetry, good literature, a fine champagne or smooth brandy (Grand Marnier) and even better book and of course good company (a good conversation is extremely stimulating), cooking, painting even if I lack the talent, and sowing. I am someone who needs to remain very slender but well formed: love to exercise and outdoor activities: sailing, hiking, running, horseback riding, rock climbing, golf.. ect and what I haven’t tried I welcome the chance to experiment.

I have a passion for music, traveling and fast cars. Love dancing but I love to curl up with a specialty coffee in front of the fire and watch a packed action movie or a chick flick, I want to feel loved, needed, appreciated, special.. its my quote and belief “ you cannot measure a man by his riches but by the quality of woman holding his hand”.. My happiness does not depend from one person or financial acquisitions but from the chemistry and honesty of two people in a relationship. Trust is the most important thing to me.. I am the architect of my own destiny and I will choose carefully whom I endow with my affections. I believe the most important thing is a well-nurtured and true friendship to build liking, respect and true love rather than lust. But if he happens to be handsome well then that is just an extra bonus but it is the substance, the persona and the character I am interested in. The good looks of a man will call my attention, a good heart and good brain will keep it.

My hobbies and interest list is diverse and as long as the Great Wall of China… simply put I enjoy life but I will not do something that would jeopardize my moral standard. I enjoy the vast excitements of life whether if it is feeling the wind in my hair while riding a horse or getting behind the wheel of a much greater horsepower. Creating and tasting fine food and drinks, traveling is a must for me, music is a necessity, keeping myself in shape not only physically, spiritually but mentally I like keeping myself up to date with culture, history, fine reading; I enjoy to read and write but my weakness is the research of the blue print of everything we are from anatomy to general to bacterial physiology, but most of all I enjoy the pleasure of helping others, working with the elderly or simply feeding the poor, I believe that your actions determine your future and I am determine to never look back and say “I regret I didn’t do that, it would have been so much fun” or worse saying “I regret of having done that”.. Impulsive and spontaneous I am but thoughtless is something I could never be described as.

This might not run in perfect flow nor will it be in MLA format but this is just some of me and my thoughts….

Have you ever woke up one morning and said to yourself ” I would NOT change a single thing about my life”

I DO every morning.. I know it sounds cheesy sure as a girl you silently think it would be nice to a have a life-partner, to taste love but I hold the comfort that God will give me the man who believes in till death do us part, till then HE IS SUFFIANT FOR ME!!!

Though life dramatically changes day to day.. those we loved we no longer do, and those we thought we could never like we all of the sudden love.. Everything that you dreamt that was possible didn’t come true but every impossible dream seems to surprise you everyday with its capability with how easy it was to be accomplished!

We live in a world where we pay 19 dollars a month to let a electronic machine find our so-called “SOUL-MATE” instead of walking up to that very handsome person and saying ” Hi” in that coffee shop you go to every morning because we no longer know how to have a conversation without using abbreviated English such as “lol, brb and dttm”

And Facebook is a means to meet people more realistically and with probably of liking than befriending the person who has worked next to you for the last 3 years.. And each and every conversation starts the very same..

A standard questionnaire of selecting a mate

1. Where do you live?

2. Your age?

3. Single or not?

4. Your Profession?

and finally if you pass all that then you have the grace to be asked

5. Whats your name?

I find it silly, how selecting a mate has come down to statistics.. this is what it means to me:  distance = meaningless, age = irrelevant, Profession= to build together.

I believe that there is no distance in friendship.. though I am social, I know too many people and even more know of me, but few I call friend and the ones that I do, I am there for them no matter what and I know they are the same for me, so I consider myself very fortunate.

Every time I drive into the city.. I see the tall buildings, the long highways and it doesn’t matter if I am a city girl.. I am still down-founded that it took the creativity of a mind to produce such and the hands of men to turn a simple world into something of possibilities and dreams.

And I say dream because if you walk the streets of Toronto and spot a little girl, you will see her stair at those buildings look into glass and see herself in that pretty dress.. A little boy will see architecture and later go home and try to reproduce it.. Something we have gotten so use too.. Our very surrounding, the luxury of life when in fact it is a miraculous event of change over small time periods.. SO I am weird because I am still that little girl at heart that sees something that I have seen thousands of times and still gets carried away with daydreaming.. And I thank God that He gave men the capability to think of “What If?”

Of course.. I love the finer things in life, who doesn’t?? I love the power of feeling that untamable engine being forced to its max.. the mind blowing flavors in food, the stoic varieties and textures that awaken your sense. Beautifully put words captivate my heart.. So you can see why people such as, Shakespeare, Hahnemann, Larry Ellison hold my attention, everything they say holds some form of value and that I admire..

When it comes to sports.. Well it has to be live and wild (I can be a screamer, I get too excited at games).. and I have a standard rule that works for pretty much every sport “If the opposite team is chasing after you.. Your running in the right direction”

And every guy asks this question ” Do you know the Godfather?” And I can giddily say “yes” —– “Go to the Mattress ” —— Tom Hanks and Meg Ryan perfectly described all I need to know about the Godfather in “You’ve Got Mail”

But here is the random things… I am workaholic… And you can forget if you think I am going to tell you how I actually feel when it comes to my emotions! SOOOOO few got to see/ hear the tears of my heart and it will become fewer and fewer as the years progress.. Typically I am the type of person that hushes what she feels and makes a conscious decision to ignore any negativity and find a way to fix a problem or to find something to be happy about. As I have said before I don’t like people knowing how I feel, because when people know more about you, the more vulnerable you become and the only time I wish to feel vulnerable, is in the arms of the man I one day will marry and I will feel at peace and safe! I rather be there for people than to be one who is constantly needing others..

My friends jokes— “ I’ve known avs for 6yrs {or how many yrs depending the person} and she has been the first I call for any situation but I have never seen her cry expect for a movie and she knows everything about me and I barely know anything more than the basics about her”

Its not that I am inattentive to my emotions, I am so properly aware of them that they never get the best of me and its not that I am emotionally unexpressive, I am very expressive but choose carefully which emotions I express.

I dance in mid public if I am happy and I really don’t care who sees me.. I am the weird girl who smiles at you as she drives by.. I go into malls with curlers on if I must.. I rather wear no jewelry than fake jewelry, I hate anything fake!… I picked out my engagement ring when I was 5 and till this day I have not changed my choice… So few things impress me that should and you would be surprise that its the tinniest things that do… Like finding someone that chews food nicely.. Or knows the proper combination of mix-matching clothing…. A man who does what he says he will.. Or spontaneity of an individual who will do something simply impulsive because they want too.. Getting a hand written love letter.. or curling up to a comfy couch with a friend and watching football, or movies.. The craziest things to me are finding people you can actually trust.. People you enjoy talking too.. And that sometimes randomly you will meet someone.. Who says it has to be in person and you find yourself telling them things you would never tell another!

I never walk away from confrontation, I am scared of no one other than God.. Threats don’t work on me.. I am the tom boy that wears 6 inch heals and wears make-up and gets all bubbly when she sees something dainty!! I have a larger tool collection than most men and has a mini tool set in her mini purse.. You never know what could happen!

I am a Pentecostal Christian, I love the Lord with all my heart and to me He isn’t a fashion statement like Paris Hilton who carries a tinny Dog in her purse….. No, I don’t Say I believe in God to make myself stand out.. To be different, to be radical because I believe in something I can’t see.. I don’t call Him the savior of my life because when I feel like an outsider I have some religion to fall back on, to make myself seem intellectual or my own person.. No I adore God .. He is the  “ I AM ” in my life.. I run to Him with praise on my tongue when bad things happen and exalt His name on the daily bases.. I have done mistakes.. I have caused Him tears but the intent of my heart is always unselfish.. I am waiting till marriage.. I think that is the most important rule a girl should keep!!!! And one I will never break.. A girl should respect her body enough not to have sex before marriage and respect her future husband. I believe in the spiritual connection a woman has with her first “intimate interaction “ . Subconsciously a woman will always make comparisons there after with every man and be emotionally unable to unconditionally love any man after the first man she has intimacy with. But I find it very important that a man knows his wife is all his.. That there was no one before him and no one after him.

I am not one of those girls that goes to bars or clubs.. I’ve gone only 3 times strictly for birthdays and a weddings party…. and didn’t enjoy it.. I am not religious, I just strictly have faith. And with order and righteousness I have the best life that God wants for me and each day it gets better.. I am respected by those who barely know me and honored by those who do.

People think I am ridiculous for believing in such things.. but I always ask this ……….. “What is the harm.. hmm? what if He does exist and your wrong about a heaven and hell? If I am wrong well then I was a boring person who didn’t steal, lie, cheated, didn’t have sexual partners before marriage, didn’t do drugs, and lived with a moral standard.. I was just a good person.. But IF YOUR WRONG!!!.. and there is God to whom you will have to answer too.. and you weren’t a boring person who obeyed 10 simple rules.. Well stop drop and roll doesn’t work in hell.! and as the saying says.. better safe than sorry!”

If there was ever a joke that described me I think it would be this one

 

 ” A husband and wife went to the mall to pick up some necessities..

 The husband told his wife ” Now don’t go buying anymore clothing!”

The wife replied, ” Of course not honey”

Later on they got home and the husband saw a bag that shouldn’t have been among the pile ..

He asked his wife ” You bought more clothing didn’t you?”

The wife replied ” The devil Made me do it,, I just tried it on but he made me buy it.”

The Husband: ” You should have said ‘ Stand thee behind me devil’”

Wife : ” I did and he replied back ” I am and it looks even greater back here’”

Pet Peeves: Stinginess, liars, cheaters, players, people who take things slowly due to protocol, lifelessness, unclean people, most hated thing in the world.. Even in my financial situation I give more than I have and hate beyond hate cheap stingy people, misers….. I wouldn’t demand nor expect but I want someone who would want to give the world to me because I matter to him and equally care about my family. My word is word of king and it never goes back and I always find myself surprised but not shock that thats not the same policy for everyone else.

Well that rest are pretty obvious and its not like they will remain a mystery the more you get to know me.

I am not going to make this information about me into perfect flow.. No, I am going to bounce around like a little bunny with all my thoughts.. No rhythm nor direction

I love orchids, Callie Lilies, and Red Roses..

I have no tattoos and never will, doesn’t mean I scorn people who do.. Body piercing? = none

I love my Jeans.. and You will rarely see me without my heels.. ! I am sometimes sooo happy that people think I’m drunk when really I never drank anything but tea.. I am clumsy.. I trip more often in flat shoes than in heels.. I sometimes laugh so much that I choke on air.. I am person who likes to be on top of things, I guess that’s why I was great at wrestling.. I am not careless with money.. and fortunately I like being organized.. I was spoiled and I am still spoiled, I won’t deny that but in the midst of being the private school little girl who was raised with lots of money and comforts.. My mother always taught me this “Money doesn’t grow on trees.. As a young lady you must respect its value and how quickly it can disappear if you don’t”

So I really do.. But doesn’t mean a girl can’t have her every once in the while shopping fix.. I am a little bit more addicted than others, but that’s besides the point!

I love socialite parties.. The class and having to be impeccable.. The self discipline to gather all attention on you without ever asking for it or trying to get others to give it too..

When I am stressed I cook endless amounts of food but won’t eat it myself! So my family is always happy when I’m not.. They have their forks and knives ready..

When I am angry I will work-out until every muscle in my body burns with pain and keep going.. well actually I do that when I am happy too..

I am a perfectionist which means I love imperfections simply because its an opportunity to make something not perfect…. PERFECT!

I am awful at remembering names but I will never forget a face. And I always try to save the under-dog!

When I say Goodbye, you can be sure.. I will never ever speak to you again regardless of your supplications and efforts.

I don’t Say “I love You” Because I think at that point your vulnerable of getting hurt.. So I will say “love ya” but never “you” and if I do say “you” its in a joking manner where it can’t be taken seriously.

If I don’t like you I never will and I won’t act nice or friendly , I’m not hypocrite.

Something I find Sad… You can’t smile to someone today without them giving you a bad face in return or them being in complete shock that someone actually is nice enough to smile to them without knowing them… SO I make it my rule to smile to every stranger I come across and tell them something nice about them.. And when I forget to do it, it happens automatically.. That just me, I always have a smile on my face!! You would find it amazing how just telling someone ” Wow I like your shirt” or something to such will make their day so absolutely happy.. They will smile all day that someone thought something about them was good.. All we have are our actions and we might as well cause a pay-it-forward reaction of kindness.

I am instinctively flirtatious I can’t help it.. my sister always joked that I didn’t know how to flirt, and truth be told I don’t know how to flirt but my happiness is effervescent, contagious and some times misunderstood. I flirt with the rock under my foot, its my nature!

I am extremely huggy and affectionate when I accept you into my life..

That’s what I want out of a man.. someone who will hold me, cuddles me, as much as I am verbal and expressive, I also find the physical interaction very important.. Even if I have never had it (in a romantic sense) I know what I want.. doesn’t mean I will demand to be hold.. but as strong as I am, I am equally just as sensitive.. I embrace my womanhood and all the pleasures that comes with it.. I never watch the Bachelor because lets face it who goes on those shows, but I got to see a few of Bachelor Canada and the one thing I liked about him was how affectionate he was, random little kisses on the cheek, tight hugs, he didn’t have to grope the woman he chose continuously, but he touched enough to let her know she was his and he had eyes only for her. That to me is precious.

I am not scared of living bugs, but I jump and hide behind the person around me when I see a dead bug.. They disturb me greatly.. They make such a louder crunchy noise!!! I adore spicy food.. I can handle heat that most mouths can’t.. I live for the burn.. I am a Grey Goose girl that is completely not loose haha and what can I say.. Mr. Jack is just a friend but when I need comforting Baileys is always by my side.

I write my best sad poems when I listen to happy music such as ” I’ve got a pocketful of sunshine” and my best love poems when I am listening to sad break-up songs.. How that works I don’t know…but to each her own..

I will never say what I don’t mean.. and even in my angriest moments I will not say something that I will regret later on… I think before I say or do… Forgiveness has always been a must for me.. Whether for my enemies or simply for myself..

I change everyday and remain completely the same..

And here is the second final thing… everyone has a breaking point.. a place in their heart that eventually caves to hurt and disappointment.. a place in their spirit that if poked enough it cracks.. I don’t have a breaking point anymore.. I am unbreakable …. and it doesn’t matter how tough the world gets around me, or what happens to me.. I will let nothing get me down, steal my joy, break my confidence or destroy my faith in all things beautiful and impossible. I am the girl that after the most awful circumstances, will be shedding tears of laughter and smiling enough to make the sun come out! I have felt the pain of your heart breaking, I have been betrayed by friends, teachers, pastors… eventually everyone hurts someone, as the Scorpio replied to the frog “its in my nature” and it is in human nature to make mistakes and the fact that each minute gone is a moment lived or ruined, seeing it in that light, I don’t see the sense on losing a minute of mine that is happy and joyful to become bitter or wounded by another’s mistake. Yet I can spend hours showing empathy and sympathy for anyone in pain or suffering that goes for all the realms (emotionally, spiritually, mentally and physically) I can’t bare to see people upset, it hurts me. I have such compassion that it sometimes can even be consider my downfall.. Even for people who I am not fond of, I will not abandon them in a moment of weakness even when I know that once they feel better they will go back to their good old self.

And I know some people think my inexperience holds some value to my thought process, they would be mistaken.. I am very family oriented, I don’t believe in the fact just because someone gets married you then tell your family “ you fend for yourself” NO, most definitely not… In my family there is a saying… “if you love the cauliflower you love the leaves around it” my family are my leaves and their happiness is my fulfillment, without them I would not be the person I am today.

Family works together, I know that if I were to be married and something happen and we had no money my parents in their oldest age would find some way to support my husband and I… That’s how I have been brought up…..  even for myself, my mother always taught me that it is the duty of a wife to be supportive of her husband in regarded aspects but if ever he would not be able to make an income it is her obligation to have the knowledge and ability to step in and be able to make an equally worthy income.

I sound demanding that I am….. do I think too much of myself??? Hmm??? I know my worth in God, I know my values and I know at the end of the day all I would give up for the person I love. Now we live in a world where promises hold no integrity and the only thing a man has to show his worth is what is in his wallet.. So if a man’s richest estimates his value and what he strives to protect.. I don’t think its wrong for me to think and want a man to love me more than three pennies.. That is why I say “I want a man who loves God more than me” because he will understand the true essence of value and what’s worthy to cherish and fight for.. and don’t get me wrong money is not what is important to me, if that were the case I would have been married a long time ago, but I have experienced for myself all that man is willing to give up, the fact that I didn’t love them is besides the point, but it showed what I am allowed to expect from the man I would be willing to say “I do” too.

I am not girl who needs a dedicated amount of attention, I very comfortable in my skin as you can see I can talk unreserved about any subject. At the end of the day I ask for only what I myself am prepared to give and not even as much. I am person who demands respected as I believe if you don’t stand for something, you fall for everything and I wont compromise when it comes to the utmost respect. And I don’t shy to speak what I think ……I am soo complex that its simple.. and when you finally think you discovered all there is to know about me.. You will discover you haven’t even scratched the surface of AVRA AMAR FILION

Quotations

“It’s being here now that’s important. There’s no past and there’s no future. Time is a very misleading thing. All there is ever, is the now. We can gain experience from the past, but we can’t relive it; and we can hope for the future, but we don’t know if there is one.”

― George Harrison

“Scars have the strange power to remind us that our past is real.”

― Cormac McCarthy, All the Pretty Horses

 

“My past is everything I failed to be.”

― Fernando Pessoa, The Book of Disquiet

“where all your yesteryears are buried deep, leave it any way except a slow way, leave it the fastest way you can. Never turn back…”

― Beryl Markham, West with the Night

As Dan Millman said  —– “ what time is it? This moment! Where are you? This moment! What are you? THIS MOMENT!!”

“For he who finds me finds life, and obtains favor from the Lord. But he who sins against me injures himself; all those who hate me love death.”

–Proverbs 8:35-36

 ” Ask of Me, and I will surely give the nations as your inheritance, And the very ends of the earth as your possession.”

Psalm 2:8

” The beginning of wisom is: Acquired wisdom….”

Proverbs 4:7


”In things pertaining to enthusiasm, no man is sane who does not know how to be insane on the proper occasions.”


”Faith sees the invisible, believes in the incredible, receives the impossible”

“Have more than thou showest, speak less than thou knowest.”

—–William Shakespeare

“life is not so much a problem to be solved as a mystery to lived.”

 nothing will content him who is not content with a little.

“the stupid neither forgive nor forget;
the naive forgive & forget;
the wise forgive but do not forget.”

“Don’t ever let me catch you singing like that again, without enthusiasm. You’re nothing if you aren’t excited by what you’re doing.”

—–Frank Sinatra To His Son, Frank Jr.

“I am not eccentric. it’s just that I am more alive than most people. I am an unpopular electric eel in a pound of gold fish.”

Prayer of modern american: “Dear God, I pray for patience. And I want it now!”

—–Oren Arnold

Know the true value of time; snatch, seize, and enjoy every moment of it. No idleness, no laziness, or procrastination: never put off tomorrow what you can do today.

“If no one knows what will happen, who can tell him when it will happen?”

Ecclesiastes 9: 7

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